Lazy and Apathetic

I'm working but I stop for a while. Why? I feel lazy again. Oh my, stop acting foolish. I can't afford to be lazy. A devotion to earning money leaves no room for idleness. I must stay busy and be productive. I must get the job done. I know what I'm supposed to do but the problem is, the driving force to do it is missing. The mind is willing but the body is weak. Oops, not that I'm feeling sick again. I just don't feel motivated. Well, I really don't know if motivation is the right term.

In every situation, be it a problem or just something that needs my action, I always feel that I know what I'm supposed to do. I know what actions to take, what steps to make. Good for me, I'm Ms. Who Knows Everything but why is it I always end up not getting anything done. I'm not a lazy person, I'm sure of that, but is not being lazy enough.

Being industrious is not always the answer. You need to take the lead and you must be in charge. To accomplish something, you must know the way and you must go the way. It's not enough that you know what to do. It's equally important that you're actually doing it. It's like knowing what medicine to take but not taking it.

I start doing things enthusiastically but I always find it hard to sustain. I delay doing things for no reason...Procrastination? Why am I like that? I know my problem. I know the solution but why am I not doing it? Is something wrong with me? I know I'm not lazy and I'm not dumb either. Why, why, why I can't accomplish anything? Think...think...think. Ms. Who Knows Everything...Oh, I see.

LACK OF MOTIVATION. Yes, I lack the desire to take action and to pursue goal. There is a deficiency in me, an absence of desire, interest and driving force. But why? Maybe because I lack faith in my abilities, low self-esteem, fear of failure, being stressed or feeling useless. I know what I've mentioned are just excuses for not taking actions. I must learn how to disregard and overcome them, acknowledge and understand everything. I alone have the power to fire up my motivation and enthusiasm. I should not let anybody or anything dictates it. I must realize how much I lose by the absence of it and how much I'll gain by its presence in my life.

It's not enough to be industrious.
You also need to be ambitious.
Be motivated and always be curious
Think what's best, don't be impetuous

Ms. Who Knows Everything, you know what to do now.
Back to work.